The Anti-Social Me

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

I think I've become a bit of anti-social lately. No more YM, sooo jarang-jarang bukak FB becoz FB is so damn boring now. Same old story again and again....mostly a place to put your crying heart out into words sampaikan ade ayat-ayat yang sungguh kurang sopan. So embarasssing lebih-lebih lagi awak tu berjantina F!! So, I have unfriend a few who I think they have no benefits in my friends list except memaki hamun tiap kali kluar status. So damn annoying!! 

One more thing, felt so geli-geleman tahap gaban reading testimoni customer-customer sesetengah penjual jamu. My BFF sorang pun ade gak jual jamu tapi dia takdelah nk kluarkan testimoni customer yang tersangat lah detail pasal kebaikan jamu dari segi relationship dengan husband. Ade la jugak filtration di situ. Sib baik morning sickness dah takde, kalau tak gerenti pagi-pagi bukak FB mesti puke to the max baca testimoni yang langsung takde rasa malu macam tu. Sometimes, some things should be kept where it was supposed to be.

Ada pulak lagi, kes yang dok klua status pasal sakit hati orang dok mengata dia kat belakang macam orang tu bagus sangat. Tapi, dia tak sedar yang dia pun 2x5 je sebab dia dah unfriend orang tu lepas tu klua status macam2 pasal orang tu walaupun tak disebut nama. Better way, unfriend jugak so takdelah kita pon dok buat dosa hari-hari baca status yang tak mendatangkan pekdah pon lepas tu gossiping tapi macam tak sampai hati lak sebab hari-hari jumpa. So the best way, unchecked the show in news feed button je lah. Pasal kata mengata ni, rasa-rasa sebelum nak sentap ke sakit hati ke, apa kata kita muhasabah diri sendiri dulu. Cermin diri sendiri dulu apa salah kita yang buat orang dok mengata je. Kalau kita ni lemak berkrim disukai ramai dan tak menyusahkan hidup orang, insyaAllah takde modal la orang nak mengata baik kat depan mau pun kat belakang, kecuali orang tu penuh hasad dengki sebab kita ada kelebihan yang dia takde, kan. Haa!! Lepas tu jangan lupa lak cermin apa kelebihan kita *kalau ada* yang buat kita rasa orang dok mendengki je.

Sorry la ye....membebal lak!!

YM pulak just yesterday baru ade mood nak bukak, tu pun sebab ade something important to chat about with my colleague...haha. Sometimes, giving orders pon through YM. That's why lemak badan pon jadi tepu...muahaha. Ntah la, sungguh-sungguh takde mood nak ber-Ym, cite pasal perkembangan terbaru ke dengan member-member as usual. Seriously, I felt guilty sometimes but I just couldn't help it anymore. It is like a hibernation phase for me now. 

It started before raya lagi. With all the sickness I felt, came in the anti-social feeling because I have no energy to mingle with people. Yet, the anti-social feeling never make itself go away though all the sickness have shed some lights of goodbye.

From the bottom of my heart, I am truly sorry my frenz if u have not heard from me a long time. I hope everyone will understand :( 


p/s : But I'm always available on Instagram bcoz it is 'sakit jiwa' free. At least, I could taste a piece of mind.